so cold...

so cold inside, shivering hell
waiting for this madness to leave
let the blanket cover me so well
don’t wake me up, let oblivion devour me

still, I cannot sleep, I cannot dream
eyes wide awake, staring at his invisible face
and the words keep destroying me
little by little, so cold inside….

Gasping for a breath,
Close
Gouge
Close, those eyes
Reaching
Hoping
Trying to leave all this ruin behind

Failure
Disregard
Succumb into death, die, die, don’t die
Im so cold
so lost…so weak, fading, and alone inside


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feel good baby, and go to hell
there you will listen to the secrets i tell
humiliation and desecration upon your bloody being
and i will never be what i seem to be...."happy"....

cut deeper, dearest, and do revel
take pleasure in this high that consumes yourself,
ecstasy, impurity, demented delusions, galore
say it honey, say you want this, so much more

kill me lover, reap my misery,
live off the darkness that threatens to destroy me
rip out the 4 chambered organ, that beats death, so calm, upon your hand
one for love, the second hate, then pain, and the last, revenge

an atrium for bloodlust,
a ventricle of death
controlling every aspect of your movements, slowly
implementing your one and only end

love me stalker, make me your prey
kill me, kill me, kill these feelings I create
rape me, fuck me, give me what I need
so cold inside, fill me up with your heat

shiver shiver, shake and fall
murder murder, take it all
delicate incision upon this beating heart
defile it bastard, rip it apart

hey there darling, read my mind
look into my mirror, look into my eyes
why do you flinch at things you cannot even see?
Wait, you think…please, do not be afraid of me…

Open your eyes, seraph, you heard what I said
Demon child, nymph child, get out of my head
Oblivion, falling,
I
Cannot
Forget
You
“Ayesha…child.., who the fuck are you talking to?”