Thoughts

"All he wanted for now was one day when his heart wasn't broken. One moment free of his torment."

- I want the same thing, too, Talon. It's funny, isn't it, how things come back to us like this? We've done so much, gone through so much, and yet, it is always the same in the end. Makes you want to believe that there is no use for it all, makes you want to tell your heart to just build that wall and not shatter it anymore. Each time that wall was built, we shattered it, in hopes that it, that we could become stronger in that aspect, but it never happens, does it? We are the the victims, the ones that feel the most, that give the most, that want the most. If we are selfish, why do we always let ourselves be the ones who are hurt, and not the others who deserve the pain? And if they do not, why do we feel it? Indeed...why do we?

"But without pain, you can't have joy. It's the balance that make us appreciate the extremes."

- If only some people believed that were true, Sunshine. It is a part of this life, now is it not? But who would want both? Who would let themselves feel both when thinking they will never get one? And yet, some of us do. We let ourselves go through both because we want those extremes, we live for those extremes, we need those extremes. I would wish to feel nothing upon myself, I would. I have wished. But above it all, who would I be? Who could I be? Even with nothing there, I am someone who cares. I want to live with the illusion that that is enough for now. Do you think any of that would help us? I doubt it, but look at us. We feel pain and we feel joy. They are both extremes which we wish would not overcome us because some of us think beyond the surface and find the lies laced in between the truths. Or are they all truths and we just are too paranoid? Or are they all lies and we are just too hopeful?
Look at what the extremes do to us. We let them. We ache for them. We hurt ourselves this way. Why do we?